Ehm, let me tell you about what just happened today. 

Well, today i was out for lunch with my friend ehm bf :$ since there's no one could take me there so i went by angkot and i was kinda terribly blessed today bacause i met someone who i had never expected to meet. He's my ex-crush when I was in junior high school. It was good to know that I could meet him but it turned out not. Definitely NOT. 

Have you guys ever had a crush on someone for quite long times? And how do you feel if your ex-boyfriend blamed you for keep crushing on him? And how if you're commited in ten-months-relationship but you feel like living with his shadow over your head? You dont want it but you just can't resist.

I'm undergoing the phase when I feel like, you know, speechless. My bf is gloomy, so am I. I didn't plan for this kind of stuff to happen. He is mad at me, and i dont have any idea what to do. I just want him to know that I care about him :)

Hm I think I better end this posting, I'm webcaming with tamy now ;D