Remembering what just happened a week ago,

Me and my mom and my dad were watching tv when finally he said "Kamu kayak cewe itu dong, punya skill dlm bidang financial, coba kamu liat tuh banyak kan cewe2 yang bakatnya macem2. kamu bisa apa?"

Geeeeeeezzzz, the last time I thought abuout it em, few years ago (if i'm not mistaken). And I've never thought about it ever since that time.

Well, it got me keep asking to my self, reminiscing what happened in my past and it was just nothing. So I keep wondering how could I be in the future. Whoaaa scaring!

When I was kiddy, my mom signed me up in many random competition of fashion and singing. Don't blame her, she didn't notice if her little girl would grow older in 'weird' body shape. She'd curse her self if she had known it earlier. And I constantly won the competition loh ahaha. But I'ts not a sustainable joy I had because it didn't stay any longer because as I was getting older, I lost my passion. I lost my self-confidence. My mom always said that it's an eternal loss. 

So, I switched from entertainment (halah) to writing like novel, short stories. But I finally found out that I can deal with the fact that I have to keep sitting my ass in front of computer without going anywhere, hua boring! But some told me that I was good at it haha

And finally, I still don't have anything to be interested in, until NOW. So sad huauhauaa