I've been down lately, losing passion, watching my grade in a very poor state.

And even friends or bestfriends are still sulking me to the core. I mean, there's not a thing, or things can keep my mood on the track. Not even my boyfriend.

Okay, I've insisted myself on writing a post but my body said no. Why? Yea right, I've got a LOT if things to do like saman practice, assignments, studying, anatomy examination, they're killing most of my 24 hours a day. Gushy I know, but that's true. My college life's been so much better since I finally know who the real friends are, and somehow you just need to know what you didn't realize at the first place. And my relationship with Faris is goin well, even we -ME- got into a lotta trouble that infuriate him, a lot, but this thing we've had keeps us going on.

I was supposed to study since exam's comin in two weeks, but my mood's totally dropped and studying wouldn't help a bit. What makes it drop is you know my last module about respiratory system, I didnt make it. I got a lousy something. I know one, I'm jared off this kind of thing. I miss my high school when sleeping at 9 won't matter. This devious way I've been going through in medical school is seriously got me crazy. Remember my old goal to be an ambassador or at least working at embassy? And now I'm studying with cadavers all around me, inhaling formalins twice a week, listening to long-perplexing-words in every lectures. Gosh my brain's almost stuffed.

But one thing I know, it's tempting. One of my friend once told me about problems, or difficulties, it depends on your perspective, you see it as an obstacle, or a challenge. Well for me, it's both, it's an obstacle that challenges me to do something more.